my brand of heroin

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Dreams are illustrations... from the book your soul is writing about you

eternal beauty

an ordinary girl with a super extraordinary life
i party till dawn
i do whatever i want
and all because...
I'm a girl.
And a beautiful one too.

love till death

*my friends
*sleeping in
*vanilla ice cream
*walking in the rain
*racing
*and so many other things

loath

*people telling me what to do
*waking early on weekends
*the place i live in

dream about

*meet prince charming
*go to Taiwan already
*wisdom, knowledge & talent
*friends forever
*win the lottery

hear your thoughts

and now...run

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Wednesday, October 15, 2008

trouble, big trouble

everyone around me, both at work and home, have noticed that lately, meaning the last two weeks, i've been rather moody. however none of them knows the reason for my constant mood swings.

i'm sure they all tried to guess, but their guesses are so far from the truth. and i also know for sure the majority believed that i got pregmant. well like i've said so very far from the truth. i'm not pregnant.

anyway i got into trouble, like big kinda trouble. the kind you can't solve by saying "sorry". not that i would actually say those words seriously. i'm starting to believe that it's phisically impossible for me to say this word.

and you know what got me into this big shit? my mouth. that's right, my big mouth.
until now i never understood why my friends kept on telling me "sweety you have a big heart. Unfortunately you have an even bigger mouth. and it's gonna get you into big trouble sooner or later."
you see i'm the kind of person that acts first and thinks later.

well i lived to see the day my mouth got me into the worst situation possible, with the person that kinda has the power to decide over my future, academic and professional future.

first let me tell you how my misfortune started. last June i graduated from college. or at least that's what i thought. you see i had to leave the country and didn't attend the graduation ceremony, therefore i never got my diploma. but that's not the point.

so...
on my second year of college i had this misogynist teacher. i swear this guy hated every single female in his class. the boys were allowed to do whatever the wanted, while the girls were constantly harassed. we couldn't even ask a collegue if we happened to miss on something he said.

anyhow, during one class i did just that. i missed on something he said, so i asked my friend to tell me what he said earlier. oh i have to mention that there were other students talking around us. but they were all guys. so he pick on me and my friend. he asked to stand up. and we stood. then imagine his nerve. he actually wanted us to stand in the corner of the class facing the wall. how ridiculous is that? for god sake we were in college, not kindergarden. so i refuse. i told him i'd rather leave his class. but he kept insisting and i kept refusing. and the fact that i wasn't willing to do what he asked us caused him to finally explode and kick us both from his class.

this little incident made us rather popular around the campus both with the students and the teachers. but not the good kind of popular, well not with the teachers anyway. we, actually me more than my friend, were seen as trouble makers, who don't have any respect for their teachers, who don't attend class and so on.

however when the exams period started we were allowed to take the exam. which to everyone's surprise was an oral one. so i entered, i took it and passed it too. and i have to say i was preety shocked. i was expecting him to fail me since i was sorta the only student ever to defy him.
imagine how happy i was the moment i exit the exam. and my life was great until a few weeks ago when i went to the Uni to register for my master. then the not very kind secretary there let me know that this teacher never went to the secretary to register my mark. in their records it stated i never took that exam, let alone pass it. and to make things more complicated the teacher left for America and it's impossible to finds him. and i have not proof that i passed the exam :( sad i now.
and for this fact the same not very nice secretary decided(by herself, not even discussing the situation with our dean) that i should be expeled from college.

i got the shock of my life when she told me there is no way i could register for master when i haven't graduated from college and i was beeing expeled.
i wanted to kill her right there. nobody gets kicked out of school for one failed exam. especially when they had now idea about it. and you don't expel students who actually got a scholarship for their studies. WTH??!!
how cruel can they be?
and now she told me that i have to register in the last year of college again to be able to take the exam, which will hold me back a year. i just hope i can keep this from my parents, cause they will seriously kill me if they ever find out about this, since in order for me to get the best education i went to a prive school.

so you see my big problem is that i’m getting kicked out of school because i stood up for myself. what happened to the freedom of speech?
i agree that maybe i shouldn't have push things that far with the teacher, but what he wanted was simply impossible to do for me.

now if i could only find our dean and talk to her i'm sure things will turn out well.

so there it is my big huge problem that doesn't let me sleep at night. see how i'm really good at screwing up lives?
you need advice on how to screw up yours just ask. i'm always willing to help others :)

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