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Tuesday, September 30, 2008
not that bad after all
after moping around for the last few days the sun is finally shining again on my street :) i know i said that i have nobody to blame but myself, but i was wrong. i found out that one evil woman is also to be blamed for my misfortune.
so a few days ago one not that nice person gave the worst possible news ever and scared me half way to death. a news that was actually putting an end to all my hopes and dreams for a bright future. i swear this woman hates me. or else how could she be so cruel to poor little me. but if thing turn out ok at the end of this week i might overlook what she was trying to do to me.
today however i tried to fix the mess i end up in because of this woman. and i got the helping and encouragement from the person i least expected. i tell you the feeling i had while walking towards his office was that i was heading towards my death. this man is such so scary at first sight, but so nice and willing to help once you talk to him.
so the final decision regarding my situation will be taken on friday and it looks like (i pray to god that nothing will go wrong) is gonna be in my favour.
and i swear this is the last time i'm getting in trouble. at least i hope so. and if everything ends up ok i'll even tell what is that i screwed up.
Life sucks big time. and right now i know it better that anyone.
i feel like i'm about to go crazy at any moment.
if anyone needs advice on how to screw-up his/her life for good just come too me.
as if my life wasn't complicated enough at the moment, last Thursday i found out that i completly ruined my future. the moment i got the news it felt like my entire world crushed down before my eyes. i fucked up everything like i never though i could. and the worst thing is i cannot talk to anybody about it. not my brother, not my best friend and mostly not my parents. it would kill them if they ever find out(not to mention they would kill me first). i've always been the perfect kid with the perfect grades at school and always on my best behaivour. if they happen to ever find out the mess i'm in right now they'll just be disapponted. how did i end up in this situation is beyond my understanding.
on Thusday i might get a chance to at least try to mend some of the mess. but if it doesn't work it's gonna take me at least 2-3 years to fix things.
and you know what's funny? the fact that i have nobody to blame but myself.
why you might ask? well summer is finally over. *yay*
i know i know. i'm the freak that hates summer. well it's not my fault i like autumn and winter better. i remember i once said there's nothing i liked about summer...i did find someting i like about it, actually something i liked about it...the summer vacation(3 and 1/2 month of freedom). however now i'm an employee therefore no more summer vacation, therefore nothing to like about summer :P see how it all makes logic?
now lets get back to why i'm so happy.
though it's only September it SNOWED. the first snow of this year. well it didn't show in the city, but in the mountain.
and lucky me, i was there when it started. unlucky for me i was there with some friends who don't like cold as much as i do. as a matter of fact they hate autumn and winter as much as i hate summer. also the fact that we were dressed in shorts and t-shirts didn't help much either. but that didn't stopped me go play around in the snow.
can you spell crazy? ‘cause that's just the perfect word to describe the people at my work. there is not one single person in the entire editorial office that is just a bit serious. they all seem serious at first sight but it's just a mask to fool those who come to the office. man did i think i ended up in a serious professional environment when i first entered the office (that was almost 2 years ago).
but that illusion only lasted for about 5 minutes before my then to be future boss came storming into the room and after introducing himself asked you i want to drink something like a whiskey, a champagne, a vodka. now let me tell you, he's one great person, though he's smoking like a chimney and drinks like 10-15 energizers a day(i'm still amazed by the fact that he's still alive and more active than most of us)
i just let my present boss out of the discussion since he might actually read this. :P i won’t even start on the boys from the studio and the never ending drinking sessions they have after they finish work. lets just say that the image you get to see towards the dawn is not a pretty one, but sure as hell is a hilarious one.
then there are the only 2 girls in the office. and the three of us are the ones responsible with adding the salt and pepper in the office. taken apart we all are almost sane girls, who can pass as responsible and professional (not that we're not when the situation asks for). But put us together and we can turn the building up side down.
i missed them so very much when i was on vacation. those were two extremely quiet weeks. but now all three of us are back and ready for great deeds(which hopefully won't get any of us in trouble or fired).
and I swear it's like we are like a crazy people magnet. recently they hired some new guys for the studios, and they are just as crazy if not crazier than the rest of us put together. so in the end i came to the conclusion that no sane person will ever come work with us.
but gosh i love all my crazy co-workers and i can't even imagine working somewhere else without them.
so, some of my friends have blogs and unlike me they actually update them almost every day. it's not that i don't like writing on my blog but i'm a bit lazier than the normal person (not that i would admit that in front of anyone if ever asked)
i do however read their blogs. which led them to think that i am addicted to blogging in a more passive way (also something i would never admit to)
and to show me (though I think they were more intrested to see the results so they could tease me later) how addicted i am to this they made me take this test.
can you spell crazy? ‘cause that's just the perfect word to describe the people at my work.